God I need to stop wearing flip flops in January!

Honestly, I do! Its such a terrible idea! Too bad my feet are getting used to not being felt. Oh well, there are pressing matters at hand. So heres the biggest news. Last friday, girlfriend. Oh yes, the dream is over. All I can think about though, is how hard it must be for her and how guilty I feel about hurting her. Its my first real breakup, so we both took it hard at first. She, by crying and running back home to Tampa, and me, by smoking a pack of cigarettes alone and pushing myself to get drunk at a party i didnt want to go to. Lets not even mention all the sappy love songs on the radio and the relationship related shows on tv.. Needless to say, its been shitty. Luckily, a day or two ago, i helped her out with something along the lines of finding her roommate which made her consider the idea of still being friends. Hopefully thatll work out. I didnt want to breakup at all, but I was forced to since things were getting serious for one of us, and heres a hint: it wasnt me. Lying to her and just agreeing with all the stuff she would say would just not be right, so I broke it off. I would love to see her around in the future, but just not for right now. Im only 19, for fucks sake. These are and will be the best years of my life, and I believe I should spend them working on my career, and not trying to keep my soulmate happy. That career part is hard enough, especially right now. I just really hope I made the right decision.

They say Im too nice for my own good,
Big John Rocket